ghosts of my pasts -Kyler-

[Shayne Thomas Greyson]

Shayne had been a mess since his brother had left his life a year or so ago; he had honestly lost track of the time. Even though he was a mess before Kyler left, he was even more or a mess after he did. The drugs, the partying, all of those good things were just a part of who he was and he had almost all of it. One of the few things that he had kept that was smoking cigerette's. There was no chance that he was going to give them up. They kept his nerves at some what of an ease, but didn't help with his mind. Nothing had really other than skating, which still didn't help because Kyler was the one that had taught him how to skate.

Everything in his life there for awhile was Kyler. Shayne could make it on his own perfectly fine; he was just your average college kid but with some issues on his hands. As he was always told 'Chin up, you'll be alright' he couldn't keep his chin up when he thought about his brother up and leaving him like he had. The two had it good, but that was until Riley had stepped into the picture, which Shayne still wasn't too happy about. He believe that it was strictly her fault that Ky had left him and was never going to come back and that was how he ended up in San Fran. He had to find his brother.

Unfortunately, he had not been able to do that yet, regardless of how hard he had looked. It was eating away at his insides more and more each time that Kyler crossed his mind. Shayne was ready to give up on finding him. That day he had skipped classes and refused to get out of bed unless he wanted a smoke; then he just ventured to the designated smoking area for the the dorms. One of the last times that Shayne had gone for a smoke break, a great thought crossed his mind; skating. He had been itching to get out and it was just another way he could get his mind off his brother. And there he was, tracing back through the dorms with a cigg dangling between his lips, and into his dorm only to reach inside of the door to grab his skateboard.

Shayne knew the perfect way to the park, as he had memorized it the first day he was there. Once fully outside of the dorms, he took his phone out of his pocket, started playing music off of it, lit up his cig, stepped on his board and was off. There was no stopping him now. He cautiously weaved through the few people walking around and went straight to the center of the park. He had finished his ciggerette by this point, so he squeezed the hot cherry out of it and stepped on it, wondering what made his brother decide to leave. Things were beginning to frustrate him because he couldn't figure out why.

He shook off all the thoughts of his brother as he slid his jacket off with another cigg in hand, and threw it on the bench, his pack of ciggs stuck in the pocket. His phone was in his back pocket still playing music, so he threw that over on the growing pile of his things on the bench a few feet away. Sighing heavily, he began to do a few simple tricks to warm up. His mind wasn't fully focused on skating, so when he started to do the slightly more difficult tricks, he began to mess up more and more with each passing try. "Fuck..." he said in somewhat of a yell, the people off in the distance turned to look at him. Taking a rather large drag, he looked over at them with curiousity; something was... different about them, he could feel it in his gut.

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[Kyler Ethan Greyson]

Kyler's mind had been a mess, his insecurities have gotten to the best of him lately and it didn't help that he had just found out that his first love was pregnant and she had no idea if he was the baby daddy or not. This was not the first time Riley had hurt Kyler either, She basically left him and it was always because "Ky you're too clingy..." -Insert bitchy Riley mock voice here- Well, he was tired of always pouring his heart out and getting nothing in return and just getting hurt over and over again. He didn't know weather to tell her good bye or to help her with the baby and raise it as his own, in hopes she would stop this constant roller coaster. Of course he couldn't make up his mind, so that's where more drugs came in, uppers, downers, mixing and matching he was a walking garbage disposal for narcotics.

So he decided to go to the park today, after wandering the streets like a mindless zombie after popping a hand full of pills. Things have seemed to getting worse and worse for Kyler, the only highlight of this week was that he met Lonnie, and he was so glad that God or Gods, whichever was up there, were really with him that day, because he could already tell that they were going to be life long friends. They really understood each other, even if they weren't talking, he just really liked to enjoy her company, besides the two druggies had a lot of common, and I mean A LOT.

So he skated to the park, looking pretty zoned out and went and sat on a bench near the skate park area. He just had his head in his hands, thinking when he heard a voice that made him snap back to reality. It was a familiar shout that caused Kyler to lift his head up and look to see who it was. He saw a skinny young man that resembled a lot of his younger brother. Kyler blinked, it couldn't possibly be Shayne, he was all the way down in Inglewood, Wasn't he?

Kyler continued to look at this kid, eventually he was convinced that it was indeed his brother, so he would just have to shout to him to find out, and if it wasn't he sure would make an ass of himself. "Yo, Shayne!" He called out to the other boy.

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[Shayne Thomas Greyson]

After a few more minutes of continually messing up, he just stood there aggresively looking at his board like it was it's fault. He let out another sigh before he heard his name called out. The voice was too familiar, one he had been wanting to hear for what seemed like forever now. But there was about a snowball's chance in hell that it was his brother's. Looking around, he couldn't help but stare at this one kid who looked like his brother; was his brother, actually. Shayne stood there in astonishment for a moment or so before he answered back. "Ky, is that you bro?" His jaw dropped slightly, it was who he was looking for.

Shayne kicked his board underneath the bench where he things were laying and started walking towards the other male. His walking turned into a jog once he realized that this boy was in fact his older brother; the one that turned him into the person he was today. Deep inside of himself, Shayne wanted to cry because he was just so damn happy for once in the longest of times. The first real person he was going to hold a decent conversation with was going to be his brother. "KYLER ETHAN GREYSON!" Stopping immediately in his tracks, he turned his head slightly and went white. The ghost of his past was standing in front of him and he couldn't believe.

"Bro, where the hell have you been?!" Screw bro code, Shayne went in for a full fledge hug and squeezed like you wouldn't believe. "I can't believe it's you, you fucker!" He gave a playful punch at Ky's arm and smiled. In the back of his mind was the thought of why his brother looked like a complete mess. His first thought was drugs, and generally, that was the right answer. "Broski, are you okay? You don't look so hot..." Shay's mood started to change slowly and so did the smile on his face. He was just as worried now as he was before. The only thing he could thing of the reasoning for this was Riley. "Come over here and sit down. Smoke a cigg while you're at it." Offering up the pack, Shayne took one out for himself and lit it up.

[Kyler Ethan Greyson]

Things were getting weirder and weirder for Kyler, was everyone from Inglewood going to up and move up to San Fran? First Riley, then Bec, now his little brother, which for the record was very little anymore. Kyler only had a couple inches on him in height and Shayne was looking a lot healthier than he was. Figuring that Shayne didn't mess with the hard stuff anymore. "Yep...It's me." Ky said as he bit his lip. He really didn't know what to think, He was happy that his best friend had came to find him. But he really didn't want his brother to see him like this, though he had to face the music sometime, and that was right now.

He smirked when his brother called out his full name, he tried really hard not to get emotional. "What up, Shanaynay?"He asked with a smile, calling him the annoying nickname that Kyler had made up for him. But as soon as his brother embraced him, he buried his face into Shayne's shoulder and started to cry. He missed home, he was sorry that he left his brother and sisters, and most of all his heart felt like it had been shattered into a million pieces then put into a grinder. Kyler had never been good with emotions, but he felt like he could let them out with Shayne around, because he felt like home after all. They had been through thick and thin together and he knew that his brother would never judge him. "I can't believe it's you either, Shay." He said as he sniffled and pulled away trying to pull himself together.

His eyes were puffy as he sat down on a bench and shuffled through his pockets to find his pack of cigarette's and a lighter, his hands shaky. "No...I'm really not okay." He said as he shook his head and lit his cigarette. "I'm heart broken, man...She did it again." He said as he blew the smoke out after taking a drag.

[Shayne Thomas Greyson]

First all the drama with moving up to San Fran, being somewhat depressed because he couldn't find his brother, now all this mushy stuff? This was clearly out of his norm, but Shayne was perfectly fine with it. His eyes started to water as he came closer to KyKy. "It's about damn time I found you. I've been searching for you since the day you left!" It was true; he never gave up, even when he thought there was no hope left in finding him. Ky looked like shit, and Shay knew right then that something was up and he didn't like it. "The person I've wanted to kill and hug for like ever."

Laughing after he heard that dumb nickname from forever ago when they were younger, he couldn't help but feel somewhat relieved. "Not much man, just wanting to break my board. And somewhat murder you. I wanted to see my big bro!" Shayne felt right again, but not fully; something was still wrong. Kyler wasn't exactly himself, but at this moment, what mattered most was that he just found his brother after quite sometime. While they hugged, Shayne kept his cigg in his mouth, taking a hit as they let go. "It's been too long.. I've missed you like crazy. Things haven't been the same without you. We all miss you." Finishing his sentence, he looked away some, because he didn't want his brother to know how weak he felt without his other half.

Shay immediately say Ky's hands shaking and he became worried. "I can tell, you seem upset.." Shayne just sighed; Kyler didn't have to mention a name and Shay already knew who it was. The girl who 'fell in love' with Kyler, then up and left him randomly one day. He didn't like her at all; especially since all of the shit she made his brother go through. "I wouldn't doubt it. She's done it before, wouldn't cross my mind twice that she'd do it another time if you let her back in. Sorry to say bro, I told you I never liked her.." He sighed as he took another drag off his cigg, "How did it happen this time? And maybe after this talk we can skate to get our mind off things like we.... used to..."