Hate me today, love me tomorrow [kiley]

[Kyler Ethan Greyson]

Kyler had been going through a lot of issues lately, just trying to deal with his own personal demons and his past mostly. But of course he only had one coping mechanism and that was to get as obliterated as possible and go on a total drug binge. Truth was, Kyler has had severe codependency for ages and it's always been coming back to haunt him. This is why he jumps from bed to bed and constantly giving his heart to any girl who will give him the time of day. But yet he still couldn't manage to have a lasting relationship with anyone. He was always screwing things up with everyone or he just plain wasn't good enough for them, so he thought.

He had been recently introduced to his new favorite drug, Meth. Though he wouldn't ever reveal his connections, but he was really loving this stuff, it kept him up till the wee hours of the morning so he could party longer, and it made him forget about all his girl troubles, forgetting about everything really, he was just off doing whatever the hell he wanted the last couple of weeks. He was kind of avoiding his usual friends when he was high, he didn't want them to worry or to get lectured and he was especially avoiding Riley, he had no idea what was going on between them, yet again he didn't think she could ever make up ear mind about wanting to get back together and it would really stress him out, though avoiding her didn't last very long, it was hard for him to not jump at every time she wanted to hang out or hook up. So he kept himself occupied with other people and new friends.

Though one day when he was coming down off of his drugs and sitting in his apartment, taking bong rips off of his room mates bong, he had gotten a phone call, it was Riley and of course he answered it. To his surprise she sounded a little off, because apparently she wanted to talk to him about something really important. This worried him, and being up all night and on drugs just days before didn't help it either. He wondered what in the world it could be? It sure didn't sound good. So he quickly jumped on a skate board and road over to her dorm, he didn't look so hot, he had been in the same clothes for a couple days now, he was scruffy, pale and thin. He knocked on the door nervously, his hand almost shaking as he did so. "Riley...I'm here."

[Riley-Mae Jackson]

She'd been putting it off for far too long now. She'd known from that first morning, that morning she couldn't keep anything but apple juice and cornbread down, when she'd started craving red beans and rice for dinner, she'd known. She hadn't wanted to believe it, not at all. Her mother would've been so ashamed, being that she was unmarried and didn't even know who the father was, and Kyler... Kyler would've been so pissed off and so hurt. So she'd kept her suspicions to herself, at least until she'd gone to the doctor a week earlier to get herself tested. However, the results came in just as she'd expected and, upon finding out, she'd immediately called her mom at home to tell her. She'd spent that whole night, talking to her family and crying. Crying about how she wasn't ready, that she was only eighteen, that she was fucking terrified. It had been a bad night.

She'd gotten her mother out of the way but now... now was the hard part. Her mother, ultimately, would always love and forgive her. Kyler was another story, though. She didn't know if she'd be able to do this alone, she needed him to understand. Things were different between them already, and she was terrified. He didn't want to hang out with her, was busy a lot. She wondered if he'd gotten another girl, and that scared her more than anything else. If he'd moved on, then where did that leave her? So she had to get this out of the way now, before things got worse. Before it was too big to hide from him. So she'd called him, forcing herself to keep calm even as the anxiety coursed through her veins. Oh god, was she really going to do this?

When she answered the door ten minutes later, however, all thoughts of her impending pregnancy (there, she said it) was shot out the window as her eyes widened in horror, a small gasp drawn from her lips. It was impossible to deny -- Kyler was doing drugs. Not just pot, but heavy drugs. Things that she had done, back when she was living on the streets and needed to stay sane. The memories brought tears to her eyes, as did the sight of him going down such a dangerous path. "Oh, Ky...."

Riley sighed a little, stepping aside. Nervously, she went to her kitchen and got some ice tea, finding comfort in the sweetness. It reminded her of home, warmth, safety. All she really wanted to do was cuddle up to her mother and cry in that moment, but she had to be a big girl now. She was going to be a mom herself in eight months. That thought made her shake a little, needing to lean against the counter for support as terror gripped her. She supposed she'd put it off long enough. "Ky, sit down... there's somethin' I need ta tell ya." She said quietly, heart pounding in her throat and her chest. "I'm... I'm pregnant. And... it may be yours but... it might also be Rhorey's."

[Kyler Ethan Greyson]

Kyler sat down on her couch, but hardly able to sit still, the hard drugs making him feel more paranoid and nervous than usual especially since he was just now coming down off a three day binge. When she said his name he was a little nervous, there was no doubt that she knew what he had been up to now, she wasn't stupid and she had done all of it before.

He pulled up his feet up on the couch and watched her walk to the kitchen, but he heard her say the news that she so badly needed to tell him, his face dropped. Not only was she pregnant, but it might not even be his. But to top it all off, it was Rhorey, the guy that Bec, his best friend was hooking up with. He had once hoped that Bec and Riley could be friends, but this changed everything now. "What?" He asked calmly as it sunk in what she had just said. He didn't even know what to say, so many things were running through his head right now.

When he and Riley were hooking up again and hanging out he had actually thought that he maybe had a chance of getting her back. He couldn't even think about her being with someone else because it just made him sick to his stomach. How could she do this to him? Didn't she care about him at all? To Kyler it was clear that she didn't, sure he wasn't the most loyal either but he never jumped into someone else's bed right after he had been at her's all night with out even blinking an eye. That had to have been what happened since she didn't know if it was one or the other.

"W-What the fuck Riley?" He finally managed to say as he put his head in his hands and tried to keep it together, but it really felt like his world was now crashing down on him. It wasn't like she was just some random chick he would fuck and just leave it at that, no this was his first love. He was really starting to give up on himself, no one wanted what he had to offer, he had never been good enough for Riley, or any girl he had been involved with because they always seemed to turn to something that they saw was better. Shit, he wasn't even good enough for his own Mother, because she had left him and his brother too. This was a never ending cycle of disappointment, so what was even the point? This just gave him a reason to keep destroying himself, because he had no idea what to do anymore.

"So, you're telling me that you fucked some other guy in the same time frame we slept together and now you're pregnant and you have no idea if it's even mine or not?" He asked trying really hard not to start balling his eyes out. "Wow that's fucking awesome." He said with a huff. "Oh, and if it's Rhorey Ryder...I totally know who that is...because oh you know, that's the guy my best friend is interested in." He said, sounding really upset now.

[Riley-Mae Jackson]

It hurt her, that he felt he had to do these drugs. She didn't understand why, not really. She'd done it, and it'd been the worst feeling in the world. It was even worse that he felt he had to keep it a secret. But then again, Riley was one to talk, wasn't she? Considering she fucked Rhorey...

But really, there was nothing wrong with it. After all, it'd been before Kyler and her had hooked back up and... started whatever the hell it was. Still, because of the pregnancy, logic was completely gone, and she could feel the pain welling deep inside, the fake betrayal. When she heard his simple "what", she knew she was in trouble. Especially as she watched it sink in, watched the pain enter his eyes. Tears sprung to her eyes as she worried at a hem in her shorts, shuffling her feet in anxiety, even as her breath came quicker. "Wait, wait, y-ya don't understand, Kyler... it was before!" Not like that made it any better, of course. Not at all.

"I-I-I'm sorry, Brown eyes, I'm... I fucked up, I know I did but I... I just... I slipped up, 'n I... well, ya know... but it was before ya n' I... a few days after. It's.. it's no excuse but I.... Kyler, I can't do this alone. Please... I'm so scared n'... I just... I... I love you... I really, I really do... 'n I ain't ever gunna be able ta make this better... but.. please don't leave me... I can't do this without you... I can't do this alone... please, I need you..." She whimpered, shaking with the effort of keeping calm. It wasn't long before she simply fell to her knees, pulling them up to her chest. There was no way she could do this without him. She could barely take care of herself, how could she be expected to take care of a baby? If he wouldn't be there.... she'd get an abortion. Her mother would hate her, but it would be the only option. It was the only way.

[Kyler Ethan Greyson]

Kyler had no idea what to think right now, he couldn't even look at her right now, this was just to much. He stared down at the ground with his head in his hands again. "Oh, I understand alright, Riley..." He said still not making eye contact. even though his mind had been clouded with drugs just the night before he finally understood perfectly for the first time. She didn't love him nearly as much as he did her and it was crystal clear now. "Before? How could I believe a word you say?" He asked finally glancing at her, he was even mad just looking at her. But it was true, she had played so many games with him he had no idea if he could believe her at this point, who knows there could be more potential fathers out there as well.

He looked back down at the ground and then caught a glance of his hands, and saw the tattoo on his hand he had, a skull and cross bones with a bow on it's head, and the letter's "RJ" in a heart below it. He actually thought that their love with out last that tattoo at one point, but now he didn't know he if he could do this again, this wasn't just running away from him, this was way bigger than that to Kyler. He tried to drown out all the words she was throwing at him, figuring they all meant nothing anyways, until two specific words caught his attention. "You love me?" He asked with a cocked eyebrow. "Then you have the most fucked up interpretation of love ever..." He told her coldly. "So, now that you're pregnant, all of a Sudden I'm good enough and we're just going to be one big happy family, with this baby that probably isn't even mine?" He asked her. "You didn't love me when you left, and you didn't love me when I found you...you didn't love me when I moved on...and you didn't love me when I came back to you a second time and you sure don't love me now." He said as a single tear dropped down his face.

"All you care about is yourself and what you want...So you know what, I don't know what to do...I love you and care about you but I know that I'm just going to end up hurt again, and I really don't know if my heart can take it Riley, if you haven't noticed I'm really not doing to well, and for once in my life, I gotta look out for myself." He told her as tears continued to roll down his cheeks as he stood up. He leaned up against a living room wall, hiding his face. "I gave up everything for you!" He called out while sobbing.