The Rest is Still Unwritten (Ravyn's Diary)

[ravynna rosaliene sparks]

Ravynna Rosaliene Sparks
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pen in my hand
e n d i n g u n p l a n n e d

••• 06 m a y 2012, First Day of Forever...
••• 07 f e b 2013, Things change, time keeps turning...
••• 19 m a r c h 2013, It was all a lie...
••• 27 m a r c h 2013, Well, fuck...

the rest is
s t i l l u n w r i t t e n

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TEMPLATE courtesy of ALASKA <3 at CAUTION 2.0

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[ravynna rosaliene sparks]

First Day of Forever...
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staring at the blank page
b e f o r e you

May 6th, 2012

Funky picture, huh? Not one of my best pics, but it'll do. Anyways, this diary entry will probably be pretty short. Nothing has really happened. Got my dorm, my classes, got a froyo... that's pretty much it. I wonder if anything exciting will happen. Senior year was nice and drama free, but knowing San Francisco, it won't be drama free for long. I wonder who I'll see here that I remember. I mean, a bunch of my friends graduated before me, so who knows who stayed and who left? And naturally, there'll be new people too! Oh, and you should SEE how huge the school is. It's ginormous! Anyways, I gotta finish unpacking stuff for my dorm, so I'll talk to you later <3

χ Ravyn Sparks

today is where your
b o o k b e g i n s

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the rest is still
u n w r i t t e n

[ravynna rosaliene sparks]

Things change, time keeps turning...
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staring at the blank page
b e f o r e you

February 7th, 2013

Wow, how long has it been since I've written in this? I don't even want to do the math. So, first off, my first day of school went pretty well, I think. I can't remember. Unfortunately, a few days later I ran into an old friend. Not just any old friend, too. I ran into Mason. That was painful. What was worse was that I had to actually tell him I didn't want to be more than friends. Yeah, I know. So then I didn't really talk to him after that, I ended up focusing on my school work during the summer, while also stretching my ears. I also got a tattoo of a raven on my back. A tattoo that I designed, might I add! I feel pretty awesome about that. I did some more modelling and some more art, and then of course, Vi's boyfriend Brett moved in with us during the summer. That was a little weird. Not only that, but she gave birth to twins in November. They're cute, named Shilo and Johnny, and I love them, but I worry. I mean, I remember hearing about him back during senior year. He was really bad, cheating on his girlfriend and screwing every girl in sight. He was just like Mason, actually, and I don't want Vi to go through what I did. I don't think she can handle much more pain, you know? I mean, Nikki told me about her past once, and it was awful, and to have to go through a cheating boy... okay, so maybe it's not as bad, but it might be the thing to throw her over the edge. I mean, one day of work would send her catatonic for days sometimes. But anyways, around the same time as the twins were born, I ran into Mason again. I was wearing batman that day too, and as you know, I usually wear batman when I need courage. I had a test that day, a hard one since we were nearing the end of the term, but it worked for later on too, since I actually showed him my tattoo and let him touch it. I miss him, I'll admit it, but I'm pretty sure he doesn't feel the same way. *sigh* Alright, I gotta go study now. I promise I won't let the next entry be so long, or take as long as a break between them.

χ Ravyn Sparks

today is where your
b o o k b e g i n s

•••
the rest is still
u n w r i t t e n

[ravynna rosaliene sparks]

It was all a lie...
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staring at the blank page
b e f o r e you

March 19th, 2013

What is it with me and only writing once a month or so? Honestly. School's been so hectic lately, it's ridiculous. Anyways, I just wanted to tell you I lied. I lied big time. Every time I say I'm okay, that I don't love Mason anymore, I lie. I know I still love him, I caught myself doodling a picture of him and I just the other day, I was actually writing a song about him and I, or trying to. I guess the reason I fight it so much is because... love is never a good thing for me. I mean, I'm always getting hurt when it comes to guys. And he's certainly a big reason why I'm terrified of falling in love... so it's easier to just pretend.

Why did this have to happen? I was finally back to normal. Happy, for the most part, stable... I don't have to take my anti-depressants as often, my photography and art skills are getting better, so why did he have to come back now? Now, when I'm finally okay? Seems that every time I finally settle down, stabilize my life, the universe decides to throw something my way, see how it can fuck with me this time. Honestly, universe, can you leave me alone for once? Please? Go fuck with someone else, I'm sick of hurting!

χ Ravyn Sparks

today is where your
b o o k b e g i n s

•••
the rest is still
u n w r i t t e n

[ravynna rosaliene sparks]

Well, fuck...
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staring at the blank page
b e f o r e you

March 27th, 2013

Just when I thought my choice was clear, more drama happens at good ol' King Protea. What I mean is that, just when I thought it would be okay, that I would date Mason and finally be happy... Peter comes back. Apparently, he didn't actually commit suicide. No, he just lied to the woman he supposedly loved and ran away. And now he comes back, with all his really attractive tattoos, his dark hair, his sexy dark blue eyes, and thinks that everything is perfectly fine. That I'd immediately run back to him. But I can't let that happen. I just... can't!

I'm so screwed.

χ Ravyn Sparks

today is where your
b o o k b e g i n s

•••
the rest is still
u n w r i t t e n